rable rable....

so todays been an all around good day. this whole week has been actually....

wednesday was another good church day. i really thought over what john said. hes a smart guy... but its kinda common sense when you really think about it... haha and then i had fun at sonic that night... i wonder if mark ever got mara back.... lol....

the weathers been absolutely amazing.... i finally can walk around trails now and not have to worry about freezing... but i do have to worry about allergies! D: darn them... lol

my grandmas recovering from surgery. so thats good that she made it out alive! :D


schools been going great so far! just wish i could stay awake for 3 days straight and not be tired... then all my work would be caught up lol


but with some positives their are negatives...

my 9 year old sisters acting more like shes 16... :/ saying she hates her life and she hates my mom and dad. she said she was going to run away from home (on her bike...) my parents told me she wouldnt listen to them... so i had to calm her down a bit... and the reason was...... A BOY! YES A BOY! she was dating a little boy who broke up with her... i guess my sister broke his favorite blue crayon!? not really BUT WHAT ELSE WOULD BE THE PROBLEM AT THE AGE OF NINE!? freaking societies making kids feel like they need to date one another. my sister told me her "friends'' made FUN of her cause that boy she dated was her FIRST boyfriend! and she snuck it behind my parents back too... laksdjflkasdjf makes me so mad.... oh how that frustrates me...

so yeah.. and i got a paycheck of only 75$ ... lol 50 goes into car insurance 25 goes to gas... that 25 gave me ALMOST a half a tank!

whats left for me?... oh well something else i realized...

money corrupted the human mind to a standpoint where theirs no going back... a lot of us forgot whats really important in life... people work long hours all day to make as much money as they can... most people worship money more than anything, more then god.... the government is in debt 9,411,641,971,178.49.....THATS 9 TRILLION DOLLARS!!! how did we do this to our society!? its just getting worse everyday... i work my butt off for an hour to get what? 5.85.. let me transfer that 5 dollars (due to taxes i lost the extra 85 cents) into gas and receive a gallon and a half... as i do that i think to my self... why do i bother? you know i mean its getting to a point where its getting so ridiculous... almost pointless.... im about to go freaking old school... like indian style and not even worry about any transportation and walk every where... we've taken stuff gods given the earth and sell it for our OWN profit. i mean i know god gave it to us to use and consume. idk but what we do and should do with that money that came from selling gods gift to us is completely different things... if we donated at least 10% to the churches... man.... think of what could happen to this world! but no... we dont do crap... and think of the homeless people that dont eat cause they dont have MONEY to buy food with. all the kids in africa who dont have MONEY so they're going to live with a life of poverty. isnt that horrible!? isnt that sick!? what have we done to ourselfs!? we lost the true meaning of life...

just something i realized here recently... sorry...

well i got some good news now...
invisible children finally emailed me back! :D

Hi David,

Thank you so much for your email and willingness to get involved. There are so many ways. Awareness is our greatest need. Feel free to use our logos and media to tell as many people about what is going on. You would be the best judge of what your community needs are and using your network to spread this movement. I think that is different for everyone but the cool thing about IC is that it allows you to use your own unique talents and interests to take action and affect positive change. Maybe you’re interested in art or film or writing or politics…. The possibilities are endless. The important thing is to have fun with it. Be EMPOWERED to spread awareness and the story of Invisible Children. Let this story and the amazing work our generation is doing, have just as important a change in your own life, as in the lives of others; both locally and around the world. We would also definitely love to hear from you in our job or internship opportunities so based on where you are at regarding availability, interests and personally, look for the position you feel called to and apply. We update our jobs section regularly. Currently we have roadie internships (unpaid) and a few on staff positions on the horizon. We look forward to hearing from you soon. Keep up the great work!

Thank you so much,

Lindsay Whelchel

Invisible Children

man how i wish i could just go to school and work for them... that would be simply amazing... i cant wait till next year... :D

well i watched the green mile last night... 1st time ever... yes im not a movie guy....
and it also made me realize how sad this world really is...

John Coffey: He kill them wi' their love. Wi' their love fo' each other. That's how it is, every day, all over the world.

sad but true... think of the kids in uganda that have to watch their own mothers get killed right in front of them...



ah man... lets see what verse(s) i can end this whole ramble off with....

perfect...

Ephesians 3:16-3:18

"I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through the spirit in your inner being. so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. and i pray that you being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the saints to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ and to know this love that surpasses knowledge that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of god."

some gnarly thoughts

ok SO todays kinda been a drag. got some major low points here today! :D

so i guess it started with me getting 2 hours of sleep and .... yeah just thats not good to be running off of for a full day. then going to sunday school and seeing people asleep everywhere kinda made me mad cause heres a guy thats had as much sleep or less then everyone else thats teaching us how to get closer to god. i mean i would understand if you left the room and slept but ... just sleeping right in front of him probably made him think that his lesson wasnt as good as he thought. The lesson John talked about today was about parents.... Personally i dont like talking about the whole parent thing. theres only really one thing that makes me laugh when i think of my parents... john hill knows what im talking about. but i love my parents to death but theirs just so many issues that went on in my life with them in my past... just... long stories for another day maybe. but anyways they've changed their ways luckily. but yeah so john was talking about that and i know its a touchy subject for more than me in the youth room... sadly... cause i know parents can be really lame some times and i know theirs a lot of people in the world that hate their parents just because they want to fit in with a select group of friends...even though their moms nice and everything... idk random(gnarly) thoughts. but yeah. that was this morning

then i go home start studying for my government test and everything cause i gotta make it up tuesday. maybe pass one of those test for once... but so i was studying. then i get a phone call. its my cousin asking if her and my ex could come over to play guitar hero. im like... omg... how awkward. i mean.... it might be a bit better if all the crap didnt have to happen when we broke up.... another story for another day.... so yeah she comes over here and im sitting there thinking... wow sound of music starts at 2 and its 1... i already thought about going but my ex being there just topped it off. so i go and im about to walk down stairs and i look in the living room and my ex is there and gave me an evil look. im like wow... ok so i keep walking then i hear TEHEHEHEH i cant believe i dated that guy!

ugh ... ex's....

soooo i go to sound of music... nice 3 hour get away for anyone that wants one. i really enjoyed it. its definitely worth seeing. but anyways i was still going on 2 hours of sleep through out the play and ill admit one time at the starting the nuns were singing and i was out for like 2 secs. woo . 2 hours and 2 seconds of sleep now! but it got better as it went on and i was more focused and everything about what was happening

so i leave there, i pick alec up, then go to church. i walk in the door and i hear a voice... a voice i havent heard in weeks... maybe months... i look and theirs savanna... (a family friends daughter) shes like 11... soooooo freaking loud and wont shutup. so annoying. and i know this is bad for me to say about an 11 year old but... holy cow.... but yeah valarie had to watch her... soo... we all assemble for youth group and we had 4 new people show up! im like woah awesome! :D. but that definitely wasnt my thought later on. john couldnt make it so phil and mellinda had to fill his place. and i mean i love those 2 people. they're awesome and everything. but i found out that none of the youth except for a select few respects them or what they have to say. about 5 people showed up late. and we had to pull in a chair or 2. so it was packed and we had a lot of kids there. i mean the more the marrier right? HAH not this time. half the time no one was listening... ok more like 3/4ths of the time no one was listening... everyone talked with out respect or caring about what some one was trying to say while raising their hand and just everyone tried throwing their point out againts the other peoples just to get an argument going. WELL... i know that church isnt a debate class. or it wasnt last time i checked. so idk what that crap was all about... but i really didnt like it and i didnt like how we treated our guest. me included. i shoulda been more out going even though i was mad at people for being lame and everything. so later on we were walking up to the other building and i saw something that just really made me sadish/madish... upsets a better word. but yeah thats something else. just made me realize how careless our youth really is when we're all together as a whole... blah. but so we were walking up there and i didnt see alec or alexis go up ... so i figured they're a bit behind. so i go up there. everyone was getting ready to worship and i go to the bathroom i come out go in the sanctuary and come to find alec and alexis were gone... so i go outside and they're out there. they said they were talking and i asked what about. alexis said nothing and alec walked by with a smirk on his face. kinda made me really mad. cause i learned usually that means they're talking about me. which i later found out they were.

so after church everyones like oh david are you going to buddies!? but i had to take that annoying savanna girl to my house so her mom could get her... so i couldnt go. and the whole way there that girl was freaking getting on my nerves. wouldnt listen to me. wouldnt shutup wouldnt stop turning off my radio and like she said she'd rather listen to rap than Christan stuff. so i turned up that crap as loud as i could and man... that little girl gets loud. but yeah...... to say in the least i could have killed her if it was about a 30 minute drive rather than 15...

so i get home and im petting my dog right next to my aunt and uncles door. i say hey to them and my uncles like your a man now say hello. im like hello SIR!! got yelled at for that. then he asked what i had in my hand. i told him i had my government book and my bible. at his angle the bible was behind the gov. book and he said ARE YOU TRYING TO HIDE THAT BIBLE FROM ME!? YOU NEED TO STUDY GOV. NOT THE BIBLE! and went off a bit longer about how the church wont do my school work and yadda yadda and im becoming a man so i should act like it. then he yells at me for having a glass in my bedroom and says that im no longer aloud to drink in my room. and idk im sitting here thinking wow... these people dont really give a crap about me... lol whatever... but yeah whatever. so i started playing guitar. OHHHH MAN! what was i thinking!? hahaha guitar at 8:30!?!?!? gotta be kidding me! it was too loud (i literally have no walls just sheets) and so i got yelled at for that and told i couldnt do anyting for a few days. i have nothing planned till church Wednesday. so i think im good lol.

haha then crap on aim..... WOO man!!!!!!!!! DRAMA DRAMA DRAMA!!!!

blah.

plus all this on 2 hours of sleep

so whoever took the time to read ALL of this i just wanna say thank you cause i needed to get it out. cause its 11:09... and im still going off 2 hours of sleep haha. woo... but everyone have a good safe week. and remember...

luke 10:27 - "... love the lord your god with all your heart and soul and with your strength and with all your mind...

goodnight

bring on the learning experience

well im going back to school :D really happy about that but yeah........ its kinda weird how it happened. i guess its really cool though



ok so this is how it all kinda happened....

i was going to all my classes getting grades and turning in books and all that stuff and i was getting kinda sad you know?
so i had to go to the library and have Mrs. Olmsted check off that i didnt owe anything to the school and what not. so she looks at the paper... and saw all my classes were passing besides english and she looks at me and was like... why are you getting your g.e.d.? in a tone like ... what the crap are you doing? for some reason my eyes started to get watery. and i told her what the schools been doing and she said ... well thats the 1st i heard about it. and she said lets go to the office and talk to the guidance councilors about it. and i was like... :/ eh... ok... and so we went and she asked why they were doing all this to these kids and why they werent caring at all for the kids and mr plemons said hey im all for the kids graduating, this all falls upon mr. dill than ms king said well hes coming from the point of view that david would be a 5th year graduate and by the looks of things he'll have to be taking 2 Englishes and possible 2 maths and credit recovery. thats the 1st i heard about all that. so ms king says he doesnt have to get his g.e.d. no ones making him. i sat there thinking wow... what a liar. but than they left me with the decision about what i should do. and i have until tomorrow to figure it out

so... as of now... Mrs. olmsteds my favorite and the weird thing is... i havent talked to her at all really since ive been up here... it was really cool though what she did...

btw i am going to go back to roane county high so im going to really have to work my butt off next year. and i mean i know i cant do this by my self, i get down too easily about my school work so im asking whoever reads this to please please please make sure i keep up with my work. make sure i do it. make sure i dont get myself down if i fail a test. i just need some help.

but thank you everyone whos prayed about everything and thank you people for your support :D it means a heck of a lot to me.

David

here we go.

as some of you may know, maybe some forgot or whatever, but today was my last day of school. had some interesting moments... but all in all i guess it was a decent day of school. now is the fun part though. going to mid town educational center to get my g.e.d.... I've been contemplating on what to do from their. People told me a lot of suggestions that kinda interested me to a certain extent. i wasn't sure what i wanted to do. Than Saturday at the concert john hill suggested something that really interested me... he suggested i could do something with the invisible children program. i thought a bout it sunday and i really liked the idea. so last night i e-mailed them asking for some information (thanks to those who read my e-mail and helped out) about what all i could do in the job field they have going on. they have job openings in San Diego. if i did try to get a job with ic than i possibly would go out there. ive been there plenty of times when i lived in California... but i would hate to leave everyone and everything i have out here... idk it would be tough, but hey they might not even hire me so yeah. Kinda reminds me of that scripture, John 3:27 - To this john replied, "A man can receive only what is given him from heaven..." so if its god will, I'll receive the opportunity he has given me and do what i can with it.


and on another note i got a text from my friend not too long ago... i guess one of my friends in california died due to drug overdose...blah... so if whoever reads this could pray for jordan vaccas family that would be greatly appreciated.

thank you, David

your strength, your sacrafice

hello god can you hear me?
what am i going to do?
i need your strength to compel me
it seems the last thing i have is you
im backed into a corner
things attacking from left and right
i really dont know what else to do
lately ive been to weak to fight

i need you jesus
more now then ever
wrap me in your light
hold me close to you. forever

god your in control
i want you to be my life
forgive me from the sins ive commited
remove this strife
so lord as im starving for you
i want you to show me what you can do
drive me in the right direction
before your will ill stay true

i need you jesus
more now then ever
wrap me in your light
hold me close to you. forever

god show me how
oh lord at your feet ill bow
guide me throught the good and the bad
help me now cause your all that i have

oh god im as broken as ive ever been
lord i need you to come in
i thank you for your sacrifice
now to you i give my life

Hello god can you hear me?
i now know what i need to do
your strength has compeled me
one thing ill always have is you

-David Jamison

yeah i wrote that not to long ago. really how i felt about my life at that time i was really having a tough time with everything going on. and i know i still will but i know if i trust god and i pray, he'll guide me.

i dont know what he has in plan for me honestly, but i feel more faith through everything thats been happening. ive been involved more at church and ive gotten closer to people in my youth that ive been wanting to for a while and im loving it. I dont know what god has in store for me with after i get my g.e.d. though... :/ but i know if i pray and focus on him more ill see what i should do.