.... yes my family ... touchy subject... but something happened tonight that just makes me wanna run away and live with some one i can trust... sad to say
but here i go
so i might have told some of you about my mother.... how when i was 8 she got arrested for meth... of course i didnt know it at the time. and then when we moved out to georgia she got addicted to cocaine and i found out she was smoking weed all my life and yeah... that made me go crazy because i hate drugs and i have all my life ... but that was the cause of me moving up here... my mom soon got arrested for cocaine... well she got out by going to drug court after some time in jail. she said she cleaned up her act and what not. well i got down there the summer after n i found out my dad was smoking weed along with my mom... and extra drama and drunkedness included..... just annoying stuff i grew up with sadly....
well anyways i came up to tennessee to get rid of the stupid crap that my parents did all my life and start new you know? well haha i guess i moved in with the wrong people to get away from that... i started going to church... my aunt tried to convince me there was no god.... and how it was made up by the government to control people easier with believes put into their heads... my uncle always uses the church against me saying god wont clean my room or give me a paycheck and other stupid stuff like that...
well come to find out really soon my aunt and uncle also have a nice little habit of having one to many drinks... and they always come home a little on the drunk side... im not going to say what all has happened... cause that would take to long ...
my aunt i found out also smokes weed.... isnt that just freaking hilarious!? man what kind of mess do i get myself into!?
well yeah my uncle came home drunk today... and went off on my aunt and broke a whole bunch of things (including my grandmas 5000$ table she got from her mom who passed away like 9 months ago)
soon after that he decided to throw my cousin out... and yeah said luckily i have a job or else id be in the same position...
but why do i have to deal with this ALL my life? why cant i just run away and live with some one i can trust? why the crap do i have to put up with the stupidity of elders?!? how am i supposed to learn how i need to be if i cant even see any good in them. i learn off the bad but still! why do i have to learn that way!?!? im so freaking over it
Job 6:8
"Oh, that I might have my request, that God would grant what I hope for
2 comments:
Dude, that totally sucks about what's going on with your family!! That's really insane, that you come here to get away from drug use, and low and behold, your guardians are doing the same thing... Life is a crap shoot bro! You're going to be a better person for it, because as long as you trust in God, the rest will fall int place. That's easy for me to say, I know, but the truth is the truth you know?!? You'll be in my prayers for sure! Stay strong bro!! 1 more school year and you're gone!
Again, I'm sorry that you have to go through that crap with your family! I'll be praying for them as well!
Nice verse!
David, I am sorry about the situation you are living in right now. I pray that you will stay strong in your faith until your circumstances change. Always remember you are not what you are raised in; you are only what God created you to be- a strong, faithful, caring, Christian man. I didn't have the best home life growing up either. I saw all the ways I didn't want to act and decide to work at not being like that. Finally, a really smart guy, Billy, gave me some very good advice. Basically he said not to set negative goals for myself. Instead of focusing on how I don't want to be, set the goal for how I do want to act. It is amazing how much difference it makes. I still have a long way to go, but that is okay. We all get through it in the end with God's help and the encouragement of others. I will pray that God puts people in your life that will encourage you to grow daily in your Christian faith.
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