it sucks when you feel your self slipping away from god. Whats worse is I know I am and im not doing a thing about it. prayers have gone out the door for the most part. my bible sits lonely beside my bed... Im in the "im sorry god i promise ill change... but give me a minute" phase. Maybe thats why a lot isnt going as smooth as it once was? or maybe this huge bump is causing me to fly off track... who knows ........ hopefully once school lets out, ill have a lot less stress...
john p. talked last night about futures... our jobs and everything... man how i wanted to be a pro baseball player in the 5th grade... i like thinking back to those times and being COMPLETELY clueless to the surroundings around me... but anyways i really want to be helping out the IC program as a lot of you know... but is it right? idk... at least i've got another year to think about it right? i really wanna be like ....... in some 3rd world country doing something... or in Canada... lol random but i bet you it'd be peaceful! thats what i thought about tennessee though when i came out here in 7th grade (exactly where im living now, oh the irony) for a family reunion...
light of the world, you step down into darkness
opened my eyes, let me see.
ah the wonders of his ever lasting love lol. i wish he could just open my eyes again. just to show me what im supposed to do... no one knows with what but my gosh it'd be wonderful to live with them again...
James 1:5-6 But if any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask of God, who gives to all men generously and without reproach, and it will be given to him. But let him ask in faith without any doubting, for the one who doubts is like the surf of the sea driven and tossed by the wind. James 1:5-6
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Nice Bloggage! Those are all really tough questions... The answers aren't always clear, because of all the clutter in our lives! Life is a roller coaster man, it has it's ups and downs, and right now, you are on the down part, but you'll soon start up the hill again, to peak out! Learn from the times you spend down, so when you get there again, you'll know what's going on.
Live everyday for what it's worth, and don't worry about tomorrow or the future. The opportunities that one day brings will let you know what to do for the next.
I wish I had some more insight for you, but I don't... I'm kinda in the middle of the same thoughts! I'll refer back to something that Kara ended one of her blogs with, and it was awesome! I'm paraphrasing here...
"People spend so much time worrying about where they should be in life, when maybe they're right where they need to be!"
Just a thought to end this comment, I've been pondering it for a few weeks now!
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